FRIEND - a gifted relation to every human - Scene 2

Few people become so close that we cannot live without thinking about them, without feeling responsible for them, without feeling to have beside them and without feeling to talk to them.......and we call them as our FRIENDS :)

Sanjana beleives friends a lot. They are her strength. They need not help her financially or physically, but if they stand beside her mentally once in life, thats it, she will never leave them and show loyalty life long. Sometimes Sanjana say to me, "I am drunk, dear......I drank the wine of FRIENDS, and I am unable to come out of that hangover". Many times I told her, "you shouldn't use the word "drunk" for that. You should tell that you are high". But she never cares and never listen. She just repeat again the same words "No...No...I am drunk, dear......I drank the wine of FRIENDS, and I am unable to come out of the hangover". 

Sanjana always have some meaning to be conveyed from her words and ofcourse, as a close friend of her, I can understand it. I can sense she is missing something she usually enjoy from one among her six senses. So, I just asked her, "Sanju dear, did I hurt you without my knowledge". Sanju was first surprised and staring into my eyes. Then she showed a mixture of expressions and told, "Why would you hurt me Dear? You are the one who is always beside me, both in my highs and lows." 

It is quite a long time that I have spent longer hours with Sanjana due to busy schedule of my personal and official engagements. Now a days, I miss to meet her alone as before. Rather I am meeting her in group i.e. usually with some other close friend cum colleague of mine. Her name is Sruthi, my manager to whom I should report. In very less time, Sruthi became so close to me that I felt like a part of myself similar to what I feel about Sanjana. Ofcourse, a close friend of mine need not be close to Sanjana. But still, I meet her in such manner so that I do not want to miss either company. I never analyzed whether it is good idea or not. But this is happening for quite a long time. The first meet went well and even Sanjana liked my friend's company, infact she became an admirer and fan of some talents and qualities of my friend. I know Sanjana come to the evening meets, for me only. But as I find her comfortable with my friend's company too, I didn't think much on it. 

As and when days passed with such meetings, I and my friend started talking more about our office stuff without our knowledge. Ofcourse, it is a common human tendency when two colleagues cum friends do not find time/comfortability to discuss in office, would definitely talk more related when they meet out of office. But, after some days, Sanjana started feeling bored in the meetings. She can't express it to me because of two reasons as far as I know about her: (1) She don't want me to miss the company which I enjoy. (2)  At the same time she doesn't want to miss her time with me. As soon as I realized the boring expressions from Sanjana, I asked her whether she doesn't like my friend's company. I clearly mentioned, it is not always necessary to include my friend all the time. She used to reply,"No Dear, am fine and comfortable." But still I can sense that she is frightened to speak out something. So, I just continued the same cos I want to wait until she speak out. Usually Sanjana share the depth of her feelings to me. But I don't know what is stopping her this time.

Today, Sanjana messaged me, "Can U and me go out sometime for lunch. Today two of my close colleagues are on leave. Feeling very inactive today in office." I am bit concerned when I read the message. Sanju is very particular in the message this time i.e. she mentioned "U and me". So, I just want to clarify what is her intention and called. When she picked the call, I asked,"Sanju, why are you so particular, don't you want Sruthi for lunch with us." Again Sanju started stammering,"no....evening anyway we are going to meet, so let us two go now...." Still she is not clear to me. I told that I will call her back and cut the call. After that call we had a sequence of messages exchanged between us...as follows:

Sanju: If I meet Sruthi now and again in the evening...dosage will be more on my brain. It is enough for me to meet Sruthi once every day. And in the evening, even if I am not enjoying or not, I don't want to cut meeting you at the end of the day for someone else.So I will enjoy definitely.

Me: You will not cut me from meeting anyone else, dear...

Sanju: I dont know what else you want me to tell. From my side I am clear, I don't want u to miss something and I don't want me to miss you. As simple as tat.

Me: Leave it here... I got what your are saying

Sanju: why should I interrupt ur interests, dear...

Sanju: I am just making a humble request for lunch with u. Am not cutting you to meet anyone. if not possible no problem, I will adjust. Got used to tat.

Sanju: thanks if you really understood that there are no negative thoughts in me. At the end of the day, I don't mind to be mad taurean, but not bad. 

Me: Sanju... You are hurting me by making certain statements... I am not liking this way of yours... Before your brain says some thing...give a minute to think.

Sanju: Dear...could u pls let me know which statement of mine hurt u. cos some signal prob or bad communication b/w brain n heart. (actually in this message brain means sanju and heart means "me" in Sanju's point of view)

Me: I deleted your messages...Can you resend the last three...third from last is a problem

Sanju: Is it this message which I am sending now  "I am just making a humble request for lunch with u.am not cuting u to meet anyone. if not possible no problem, i will adjust.got used to tat"

Sanju: Is it this message? 

Sanju: I just mean to say something, that I got used to the happenings in my life, and nothing related to anythng in b/w u n me.

and after this I didn't reply to her messages........After some time again Sanju messaged me:

Sanju: I just want some time to spend with my heart. For that also I need to give these many explanations.

Sanju: If I say I don't want to spend time with u, and in that case, if you had asked these many questions, I would have felt that I have done some wrong.

Sanju: something is going wrong somewhere with me. Am not knowing whether the wrong is on my side or may be manufacturing defect in me.

Sanju: only happiness in the conversation we have done now is the sharing level u had shown with me. Thanks much. even though you are angry with me, pls dont let it down.

still I sent no messages to her......then after sometime....

Sanju: Dear, let us cancel the lunch. You have your lunch as usual. Let us meet in the evening with Sruthi.

Sanju: even though I meet u now, I don't think I will be in a mood to spend time with you in a proper manner. just feel to cry may be.

Sanju: so better we don't meet now .keep cool. no matter. I will make my brain server up and continue my work. 

thats it...I called her immediately once I read this message from her. I started scolding, "Is everything your wish? Deciding whether to go out for a lunch and cancelling the same......are both your decisions!!!. Fine start off. We shall go out for lunch".

Sanju came to my office. We both drove to a nearby mall. While I am parking the car, again I started asking Sanju whether she don't like Sruthi's company. First Sanju replied in cool tone. When I continued she lost her patience and showed frustration. But she never show frustration on me. In the process of controlling it, she almost broke into tears. She is just hiding her eyes away from me by getting out of the car. At that moment, I got very angry and am unable to control and got out of the car and closed the door very furiously. It banged with a loud sound. Sanju was shocked with my violent actions and started trying to get control of her brain and expressions. She realized my anger and started running behind me, as I walked fast. She tried to smile and said,"Dear..." in low voice. I am out of control this time and shouted, "whenever you show your negative expression, we have to bear and you can't bear my anger!!!" Sanju just replied in low voice,"Even now, I am not happy, I am just controlling myself for you." 

We walked to the food court, got an order and sat. Then we started talking in cool tones and slowly cracked few jokes. Sanjana ate very slowly unlike everyday. She usually eat fast. I asked Sanju,"Why are you eating very slowly today." She simply smiled and replied, "I want to spend more time with you". I said,"Even we can eat fast and spend time together roaming in the mall." Sanju was surprised with my remark and smiled and replied nothing. Once we finished our lunch, I took Sanjana to crossword. In the crossword I met one of my friends who is sitting and reading some book. I had a short talk with her and started seeing the books. I found two books which I have read and liked much. I showed them to Sanjana. She didn't show interest in even looking them when I told. I just felt bit bad, but continued seeing other sections. Suddenly, when I turned back, I didn't find Sanju. When I searched for her, I found her reading the back cover of one of the books I mentioned. I smiled for myself and continued my book hunt. After some time gain I lost view of Sanju. When I searched I found her in clothes section. I am surprised how fast her interest shifted. I expected Sanju to buy that book and read. Anyway, I didn't continue thinking much on that and after sometime we left.

I dropped Sanju at my office. She left. After sometime, the friend whom I met in crossword called me. In the conversation with her, she mentioned she just came out of crossword. And she told, "By the way I saw your friend in the crossword still, and did you leave soon because of any more work in office". I am surprised when I heard this. I replied,"Do you mean Sanjana, whom I have introduced in crossword?". My friend replied,"Yes, Ofcourse, I think she purchased some book. I found her at the counter when I am coming out." When I heard these words, I am speechless, I just told my friend that I will call her back, and cut the call. I lost into some thoughts......Always Sanju never misses what I say to her. In some way or the other, whatever I do or not, she touches my heart....she value her friends so much.....

Communication in true Friendship ~ Response between Brain and Heart

I deliver each and every thought and also how my thought converted to my very close friend. Those are the sharing levels of mine with very close friend. Its just a brain transferring signals to heart. If I am unable to answer any question immediately, one can observe how much the brain is thinking or working out for not hurting its heart by immediate transfer of those unnecessary signals, or else, it has no data at that moment to transfer, that is when it pauses...I see my friend as a key part of myself.

Does LOVE retain for lifelong? - Concept of ORANGE movie as my writing

Does LOVE retain for lifelong? This is a genuine question which strike every mind at some point of time in Life. There would be no individual on earth without contradicting feelings on the same thing or same person which/who exist for quite good time together with them. The moment when we got inspired by some characters or qualities or features of some persons/things which we come across, we start trying to learn and explore more and more about them. This results in interacting more with that person or use that thing more frequently not only just for learning about them but also to know how much they learn about you in turn. And this learning period will definitely be ever exciting and ever interesting phase. In this period, we find more and more qualities we like besides coming to know few qualities which we dislike. But still, in this phase we concentrate only on the qualities we like and doesn't bother much of the few qualities we dislike. So, we enjoy the relationship without any conflicts. At some point of time, even we think that they are our world and don't care much about the things surrounding. This may lead to something we name called Love or else a Close Friendship. Love exist in every relationship (connectivity) of human life and Friendship is one among such human relationships. There is a thin margin differentiating between the two which I would like to discuss in later post.

As and when the relationship grow and continue for quite long time, we again start thinking about ourselves and our interests and we lose interest on their regular qualities which we liked in them and slowly our concentration diverts on their negative side also. And we would start thinking about the sacrifices we have done to maintain a relationship with them. From this point of time we start showing drastic changes in our expressions. In this phase we feel free to express negative expressions i.e. our anger, frustration, dislike, etc.  immediately when we feel them. This is because of our bond with the person which grew stronger and we gain confidence in freedom of expression and thought. This is the state at which we feel to express and share anything to them truly without hiding.  But we human beings have different feelings embedded in us, like caring, possessiveness, hate, like, love, secure, frustration, etc. So, in this phase where the person take the freedom to express, if any of our negative feelings i.e. possessiveness, dislike, frustration, etc. are enhanced, definitely a conflict rises and sometimes it may even lead to situation of losing the relationship. This is the point at which we start thinking why we start hating a person whom we are ever interested in upto now, whose most of the qualities we liked upto now.........A self analysis starts and there comes the question Does LOVE retain for lifelong?

My answer for this is absolutely YES. Hating someone with whom you already built a relationship is something virtual. The hidden fact behind would be you are loving it more, but exhibiting it with a negative expressions like possessiveness, anger, frustration, etc. In such situations instead of exhibiting the negative expressions on each other, if we try to love/like and care each other much more, our relation grows much stronger, sweeter and with everlasting love and happiness.

Ice Cream in Banana Leaf makes more appetizing

This is just to convey concept of Ice Cream in Banana Leaf. The image is not refined. Please bear the quality.

A card to fiancé to express her expected future with him

Please click on the card to have a clear view

A letter conveying a friend how frequent you are in his/her thoughts

Dearest,

I don't know what to write

But still......

I wanna write to you something;

But don't know what thing;

and thus don't have anything;

so.... I end up in writing nothing 

This letter seems to be have no content at all. But that conveys a lot if you read by heart.

FRIEND - a gifted relation to every human - Scene 1

As usual Sanjana is waiting in the parking area of her Friend's appartments. She always values the time she spent with her friend daily. But at the same time she do not want family time of either of them to be consumed for this. Sanjana do not want anyone to face the problem she has from her spouse. So, she always go to her office along with her friend Sahithi to utilize that time to spend with her. Even though Sanjana's office is on the way to Sahithi's office, she get down at her friends's office and then again come back to her office. That precious she consider the time with her friend. This seems strange to many; and many others think this as a foolish thing done by jobless people. But amidst of all her office work, family responsibilities, and creative writing hobby, Sanjana try to maintain this everyday and cover all of them without fail. Each moment she spend is well planned to be heartfully happy. Sanjana's friend circle constitute people related to various fields. Most of them are born artists and one such friend of her is Sahithi.

It is the day before the Diwali. There is a bay decoration competition in Sahithi's office. Sahithi is a determined person always aiming at the winning part in life, say it a game or career. That is why she serves as a good lead in her company. So, Sahithi want to be a winner this time also. For that she set her mind to work from the day before. After she came downstairs, both exchanged smiles as usual and got into Sahithi's car. Sanjana as usual started blabbering some unrelated topics and cracking some meaningless jokes. But Sahithi's mind is thinking about the competition. Sanjana realized after some time and maintained silence. She felt like herself as if Dr.Watson sitting beside Mr.Sherlock Holmes :). Sanjana is a reserved person to outsiders and open up and talk freely only with very close ones. She is a character who is more formal to new people and more informal to her closed ones. So, she will be fun and ease going and helpful to her close friends, but bit difficult and boring to friends/relations of her friends.

Sanjana always say that both of them are unlike minds and hence as unlike polls, they attracted. She believe in the theory that unlike poles attract and like poles repel. But Sahithi disagree with Sanjana's theory. She says that both minds think alike and that is why they became friends. No one new how it happens, but few relations build without knowledge of ourselves. Such a wonderful relation is friendship.

Sanjana as usual got down at Sahithi's office and headed in the direction opposite to her office. Sahithi called her back and asked, why is she going in that direction. Then Sanjana told that she do not have office that day and came just for Sahithi. This surprised Sahithi a lot. Sanjana smiled and replied, "when you finish your work, just give me a call." and left. Sanjana went to a nearby shopping mall, entered a cafe and started working in her laptop. After an hour or so, Sahithi called and came to pick her. When Sanjana got into car, Sahithi asked whether she would accompany her to shopping. Sanjana immediately told yes excitingly. But the next moment Sanjana is surprised when she told that they are going with Sahithi's team members for purchasing decorative items for bay decoration. Sahithi want to untilise this shopping time to be with Sanjana. That is why she called Sanjana even though her team is going to be along. Both of them picked Sahithi's team members at Sanjana's office and left for shopping. Though with colleagues, Sahithi prefer Sanjan to sit beside her in front seat while driving. Sanjana showed some photos in her cell which she took in shopping mall where each shop is decorated with Diwali theme. She took those snaps for Sahithi only, so that it may be useful for her bay decoration tomorrow. This shows the level of responsiblity Sanjana shows towards Sahithi.

After shopping, they dropped the team members at office and started to home. Both are sitting silent in the car. After 5 minutes, Sanjana can't tolerate the silence and asked, "What are you thinking about, dear...." Sahithi replied that she is thinking about tomorrow's competition. She started talking about the colour combinations, lenths of decorative cloth, flowers arrangements, etc. Her creative brain is working like a designing software visualizing the expected layout of her bay tomorrow. Sahithi's commitment inspired Sanjana a lot. She again began to feel like Watson and Holmes. She smiled to herself and listened to her friend in silence. Once they reached Sahithi's appartment, Sanjana got down and left to her home in an auto.

Few people become so close that we cannot live without thinking about them, without feeling responsible for them, without feeling to have beside them and without feeling to talk to them.......and we call them as our FRIENDS :)